Monday, January 31, 2011

To whom this may concern.

To whom this may concern,

For me it wasn't about feeling "un-pretty" or being unaware about how beautiful I truly am (inside and out). It was just about being ENOUGH. You weren't the first and that's when this became my problem. I am a very understanding person who respects honesty but in the end that gets me pretty much nowhere in terms of what I am deserving of because people feel like they can do whatever they want as long as their being honest with me, & of course over all this time I learned my worth and what to stand for and what not to stand for but this time my feelings got in the way.

I am set on a higher level of maturity every time I experience another period of feeling like I am not enough. It’s actually very tough to deal with & I became so hard on myself to make sure everything is always looking good. But then I realize that's just the kind of person I am, I put others feelings first vs. putting myself first. I knew it was time to start thinking differently because seriously, come on, everyone else does it so why don't I, right?

Not to sound cocky but a lot of people need me. After you made me feel like I wasn't enough and I realized that I am way more than enough and deserved better, you found out that you needed me too. I'll always be here but on a different level. Because of my insecurities I can emotionally disconnect myself from anyone and still call them friend. So yes, I know I'm beautiful, I hear it every day, but now I know that I am more than enough and that anybody is lucky to have someone like me in their life. If they decided to take it for granted, their choice; their lost. I'm worth it, so go all the way or stand still.
                        


 Yours Truly,
         Mrs. I Know Better .

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I LIKE THIS

Anonymous said...

i love this! i struggle with the same type of insecurities as well. Realizing your self worth is important!! if you don't want me in your life then its your loss not mines!!!