The wrong one.

In my first year of high school I was dating these two guys Ra & JN. Rd was my ex boyfriend and we just recently broke up. I liked him so much that I was thinking about letting him be my first. At that point my feelings were all still there. Ra was the first boy that I actually liked and cared about in my new school. All the others boys I did not really like. Then I met JN who I thought was very cute but he was an asshole.

He was never in class and he always smelled like weed. He was a bad ass, the kind the teachers would always step out the class & talk to privately about his behavior and he'd always showed how much he didn't care. I guess something about that turned me on. We started talking but it was nothing that would be serious or go anywhere because I fell for his type before. Plus Ra and I still did things like we were a couple, kissing in the hallways and meeting at my locker.

Anyway so one day me and JN were walking up the hallway and he decided to walk behind me and hug me from the back. My friend Carla gave me an eye, kind of like a signal but I didn't understand why. JN walked off and I opened my locker. Ra came behind me and said "let me know when you're done with that n****"... my heart dropped. I lost the wrong one!

I just stared into my locker for two minutes getting myself together and then I went to class. I was young and probably would of handled things differently if I were the person I am now. No hard feelings though , we live and we learn. Hi Ra! lol